Life at 23...?

time flies isn't it? it's already half a year into 2007, and I still feel like it was only weeks ago when I was scribling and planning my new year resolutions.

My Resolutions? Let me share 4 of it... :D

Number 1 : To Get a promotion in September, and to buy myself a car.
Outcome? I gave in my best effort, work almost 24-7 for past 1 and half year, work till couldnt differentiate day and night,work till i visited the doctor so often that i suggested that she should implement a medical points collection system so that i can claim rewards next time... truth is, i felt silly, because the higher my expectation was, when truth spilled that I wasnt able to achieve it, i felt trashed and burned. I overworked myself and exhausted myself...resulted in nothing. I've learned that, in reality things aint that simple. it's not like in school anymore, if you study, memorize the entire book, go for exams, you'll at least be guranteed an A. But in the rat race? things aint as simple, you've got to stand out like miss universe in front of your bosses.. damn competitive!Therefore.. my new resolution for 2008 : 1-Full Time Encourage KY to work HaRD so he can become rich man and i can become Rich Man's wife :D, B-lottery lar! sinlee always say wan.

Number 2 : To get a Toned body, means lots of exercising.
Effort?I joined the gym and went 2-3 times a week for the first 2 months. After that? I sponsored the gym for next 4months without stepping foot in it. sigh.. i m such a pig. ok lar.. this one i havent given up yet.. i still have 6 months to get toned.

Number 3 : To Drive.
I m such a loser. Since the day i crashed into the car in front of me, damaged the car's engine..after 1 and half years, i am still in shocked. and still shivers each time the driver gets too near to the car in front. Already no courage and no confidence for things, this happened, feels like i'll never surface again. such a coward huh? I realised i am always scare of things.Not the type who recovers quickly.. My dog died almost 2 years ago, believe me, I still cry! and I still shrugged whenever i recall the painful days before he died. Is this normal? Slow to start = slow to recover as well? sigh

Number 4 : I Want To be Able to Sing...
Childhood fright. Remember during Form 1's incidents whenever I opened my and sang, it turned from broad burning hot sunny day to dark clouds, heavy rain and thunderstormed at tapak perhimpunan? I tried again 3 days in row and same thing happened? Since then each time when the weather is hot, you all will coax me to sing. oh well.. since that day.. i havent really dare to open my mouth to sing.. i guess you ppl are to be blamed for that too k! haha felt jinx.

My achievement at 23? i've never been out of my house. I've been living under the same roof since the day i was born. I have no idea what's being independant. I know I wont survive if you throw me out in the ocean. I am still being labeled as Slow wherever i go,although nobody knew my past.. nobody knew i was a steamed bun. but some colleagues are starting to hint that ..'ah bin,you very slow la?' aiyak. cant run away from it. I am still being bullied at work! just like how u guys always throw things in sky and ask me to wwatch.. and how you ppl always fool me. haih.. still the same now k!! sheesh.. yeah.. i still sux at any ball games. basketball, football, netball, pingpong, tennis, any game that is related to any forms of balls la. you think it has anything to do with my blurness? haha i dont know. I certainly wish that i can do better. I always either hit the one beside me or myself.. so each time there;s a ball game, someone gets injured. Does khoobinwei has anything to be proud of? I cant think of any *sOb*sOb*..

ok lar. phone call again.. got to go work now..SigH..it's 12am sharp now! and ppl in office still say that i am very free. Well, I just dont highlight to ppl thats all. Only stupid ppl will leave office early,go home and work from home..btw,thats me=visibility low..