Re: Depression

Well.. its my first post here.. Never had the chance to sit down and write something or even read it! Been working almost everyday.. 10 hour job.. just standing the bloody whole day and being pissed at customers cos all they do is just yell at u.. I work in a dodgy suburb where all the druggies live. So they come in everyday asking for their drugs. And I have to serve them... If im not lucky, they'll spit at u.. so that's my life for the whole year.. I have a security guard that walks me to the train station everyday now after work cos lately a lot of druggies have been following me as they know i catch the train. Life's a bitch.. old ppl can be naggy all the time.. pensioners think they are kings and queens.. and at the end of the day.. u have to smile and say.. Hi! How can i help you?! And try and explain to a person who doesnt speak english what a generic brand of medicine means.. and it takes half an hour to do it and then realize she's been nodding at nothing..

Re: Depression.. well bin wei, if you want to know about depression, u can ask me. I have been diagnosed with it together with anxiety.. and still am. I am on drugs for it and have been on it for a while. I've never mentioned it because its not something u want to go around spreading the news. I'm saying this here cos i think you guys are truly my best friends. I have no friends here except for probably my housemate (Denise) for those from sri petaling would know.. She's the only reason i'm probably still sane. I have been hallucinating a lot before i was on drugs and my weight fluctuates from 40 kg to 55 in about a mth.. one day i'll be binge eating.. and another week i wont eat dinner.. The only reason i'm on anti-depressants is because it came to a point where i hear ppl talking to me (btw.. there isn't anyone around) and its not something that happens in ur mind.. its literally someone talking to you.. And the things they ask me to do aren't very nice.. At the moment i'm still sane.. i know what's right.. and what's not.. but i didnt want to wait till it controls me.. and next thing u know u find me dead on the ground floor.. thank god i live on the 4th floor!

But anyway.. bin... ur not depressed.. ur mostly stressed out and maybe just anxious... just relax and u'll be fine.. talk to us when u need to

Take care peeps!

sook