hsiulye's leaving tonight for Manchester again...and i've just spoken to her on the phone, darn.. we have only met up once since she came back to Malaysia, and she's already leaving back to UK tonight! hsiulye has always been the perfect person to talk to, to lift you up whenever you are down or up.. anytime at all....anyway i'll miss you loads girl!
while we were chatting on the phone, our conversation has really really striked me, as i've learned how she manages it on her own in Manchester, how she does everything on her own, groceries lar, travel lar..etc etc etc....and it obviously reflected on how NoT InDePenDant and what a WeaK person i am camparingly.
it's been 23 years of life, and i am wondering, if i were to be thrown into an unknown land, no friends, no enemies, no dogs, no phone, no washing machine, no personal toilet, no food in the kitchen, so nasi lemak, no kuey teow soup, no potato soup, no pork noodle, no mee rebus, no chicken wing..etc etc etc, how will i survive? this is a huge question mark [?] for me.. really..! i am just not like you peeps!
i was just telling ah lye, every morning when i wake up, i bath and all i need to do is throw my dirty laundries into the washing machine and everything will take care of itself, magically..the very next day, i'll see it all smelling like flowers or lemon, nicely folded on my bed..
dinner? i just need to come home every night, and dinner will be served or waiting for me on the dining table. Sometimes, just need to mention what i feel like eating tomorrow, or call home in the afternoon, and Taaa DaaaAA! my fav dish on the dining table! magic!
When I have no more toilet paper, shampoo, toiletries? all i need to do is just walk downstairs to the store room.. else? walk over to the next room, steal from mom's toilet..as simple as that!
when i am sick? well, it's wonderful, everything takes care of its own again... i only need to lie in bed then medicine, water, food, newspaper, magazines, and even visitors appear by my bed...
When my waste paper basket is full? nah, it's never been full all 23 years of life, why ah? ......
So, have i been taking things for granted? what if all these magic leaves me one day? how is KHOO BIN WEI going to survive? now i am scare... why didnt i realised all these earlier? now, i am praying hard, i promise to learn and be less dependant on magicall mom.. but pls dont throw me out into the wild now.. i'll die.. just like throwing your poodle into the jungle. omg!can you imagine how's that??
you guys are lucky...u've been through all these tormenting period and it's historical now.. you've learned from young, age,19-20... and now i am 23, old D..but, well never too late to learn..? but its going to be a painful progress... *sigh*
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