Are these the signs of pms?

Hi girls,

I’ve not been keeping you girls updated for sometime. Been bz working and recuperating during the weekends for the energy and brain cells I’ve killed during the weekdays.

it’s pretty tiring going thru the same routine everyday. Every morning, I wake up at 7.15am, bath, fold my blankets, go down stairs drink milo, go to the lrt station at 8.10am, reach office at 9pm. I see many cars and haze and Indians along the way from lrt station to office. Then I’ll sit by my desk, face the desktop and laptop all the day till 8-9pm everynight, reach home 9.30pm, eat dinner, bath, sleep.

I wish I see more greenery and could be doing something more meaningful. Is this how my life will be for the next 30 years? gosh. How meaningless? And imagine how my tummy and buttocks would have expanded, all the fats accumulated over the years through the hours of sitting down butt flat on hard flat surface chair. Gosh.

That pimple at the very tip of my nose is making me look like a witch. Its swollen, red and painful. I am paranoid. I think that everyone on the train and office is staring at my nose.

Its company dinner next week, the theme is “Magical”, I thought of going as a witch, yeah, and now my nose is complimenting me. By next week, the redness would have turned black. I’ll look like the photo attached below. Hhmm…

I’ve put on weight on my tights, waist and arms thanks to the variety of good food for lunch at Petaling Street area… I cant fit in all my babyTs, and all current jeans anymore. when I sit down, I can see the layer of fats at my tummy. Its so ugly.

Anyway I am abit stress now as my supervisor will be away for holiday for 2 weeks starting this Friday. I would have to take over the team as team lead and manage 3 other people in the team. I will also be the point of contact for 5 other teams, the client and our Singapore client counterparts. Sounds like good opportunity? But no, cause I m not ready and I don’t know what’s going on but pretended I knew all these while. So now, I m scare. And stress. And leads to sleepless nights and nightmares. Help?! acne popping out like mushrooms again.

I probably need to find ways to de-stress myself. Need meditation classes or yoga else I’ll go mad soon. Help.