bad mood!hey where’s everyone? how come nobody’s replying me instantly? okay, since no one’s entertaining me in the gossip box, I have made a decision; to blog.
1st of all, I m very jealous that selangor has public holiday today and KL Sentral is not considered Selangor. my jealousy is majorly due to chan sin lee, who was stressing on sleeping the whole day today and making plans to go for drinks and mamaks last night, and for telling me how nice it is to have holiday in the middle of week and for her very straight and innocent remarks,
‘eh bin, you no holiday day? HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA’.so evil.
2ndly, my mentor/senior who was my only source of guidance has tendered her resignation yesterday. since I am so damn bloody young and inexperience here, ppl don’t really talk to me unless they need to. in reality, ppl belittle your ability. she was the only person who was training, teaching, coaching, guiding, blocking me from all the beast, and protected me. now, what will happen after she’s gone? she always says ‘Binwei is a white sheep la, kena eaten by lion also wont realized’. it’s true that I never really knew how to block away ‘tai chis’ and I get thrown into trouble all the time. i don’t have enough working experience and I m not fast enough to think of ways to divert issues away. this is very crucial to my current job/role. I jst cant imagine how much unnecessary work and trouble I’ll be getting into after this. my responsibilities for next month are;
i) To run Business Intelligence workshops – I need to conduct workshops to demonstrate and convince potential customers on the company’s products capabilities. I have no prior implementation experience on Business Intelligence. I will need to know in and out of hardware requirements, functionality, readiness for the company to implement, technical concerns etc. the moment I cant answer, I’ll look like a fool on the stage and ppl will lose confidence and this results in losing sales.
ii) To do Prove of Concepts – after preaching about how good my products are, I need to do partial implementation with the client’s company data within very minimal timeline to prove that what I preach about are not lies. this includes implementation, preparing speeches, presentations, demos, slides, anticipating questions and handling difficult clients.
iii) To do demos/presentations – I need to meet clients to understand their business pains and to propose a solution suitable to their current situations. this includes doing demo’s, giving presentations, convincing clients and to turn negative response to positive responses. this requires years of experience.
iv) I need to develop full technical skills and write a full documentation for my company, like a white paper write up on technical solution/implementation of company products.
v) and finally I need to get certified by end of the year. This is my KPI for individual performance. if I fail my exams, I’ll need to pay, and my kpi is screwed.
3rdly, I’ve put on so much weight that I can hardly fit into my current shirts, t-shirts, skirts, dresses and pants. it feels so damn tight and uncomfortable. and the last time I cut my hair was more than 3 months ago. its so messy and partially black, and half length dunnoe what color result from my last dye. I look so damn ugly now. I wanted to cut hair, buy new clothes but stupid inflation, I don’t have enough budgets to spend.
my 1 and only black heels broke into 2, and I invested on a nine west heels which I thought would be comfortable and long lasting. costed me rm 369 and it was the worst heels I’ve gotten in my life. I had to plaster my entire feet both left feet and right feet after wearing the damn heels and this included all my toes. blisters and torn flesh up left right corner and back.
ok I know. I need to stop complaining. but plssss! I need to release stress ok. I m frustrated!
This is my new collection..Well, got it for a few months already..my new 42 inch plasma, my collection of my nintendo wii crap and my playstation ..my guitar hero is missing in action. And i just pre-ordered guitar hero 4 world tour and it comes with a massive drum kit! Yes..im a gamer
girl! happee Birthday! pls forgive me for being so heartless.... i forgot to text you last night.. and i was in training since morning :S anywaayyyy HAAPPYYY BIRRTTHHDAAYYY!!! I LOVEEE YOU LOADSS!!! *HUGGZZ*HUGGZZZ*