hi girls

i'm sorry i have been MIA for so long.
my life has been non-stop working/studying for about 2 months now.
i'm officially out of my house officer year, and i'm now called a "senior house officer" or a fy2. very scary, because although i have 1 year's experience behind me, the responsibility is also greater and i still feel like a junior inside.
bin, that was a really good video. i guess all of us, at some point, no matter what we're doing, will feel low and crappy. i know i do.
i really hate my job at times, because it just seems like i went into it naively thinking i was going to magically make everyone better. but there's more paperwork than patient care, i don't even like or sympathise with some of my patients, and sometimes the demands and pressures put upon me just make me feel like giving up. i thought patients would be grateful and appreciative, but sick patients and patients in pain are not necessarily grateful, doctors are getting more and more involved in litigation issues, and then there are the repeat offenders who come in all the time because of self inflicted problems, ie alcoholics, drug abusers, etc etc. sometimes i wish for an ideal world where everyone would remember to take their medication, do as they're told but it doesn't happen that way. i already feel so tired of this job and i've not even gone all the way up the ladder yet. i've seriously considered quitting as well.
so besides that, i've just sat for my mrcp exam (it's a specialist exam for those wanting to specialise in medicine) yesterday which is a hard paper with a 70% fail rate. i'm back on surgery on call today from 8am until 9pm, and tomorrow. on friday i start nights from 8pm until 9am and i finish on sunday. so there's my weekend gone. when i finish on monday 9am, i get the rest of the day off and then i'm back doing 8-5pm the rest of the week. my bank account has gone into overdraft a few times because i don't have the time to go to the bank any more, i have to do everything online. but hey still, that's life isn't it.
thanks for all your birthday wishes and happy belated to the july, august and september babies!!! i will update another day when i have the time but but but i just wanted to tell you all that i've booked my plane ticket home for oct 10 and i'm arriving oct 11! will be in msia for roughly 2 weeks. so i will see all of you then and i can't waitttt because i miss all of you so so much. heading off to sleep now for another 13 hour shift tomorrow ....... wish me luck!

love hsiu lye

What do you do when you fall down?

i'm here

hello hello!! ok let me update myself.....august was examinations ( meaning student taking exams and teacher's stressing their life out)....september ( recording) my church SIB is coming out with an album and i've been going in to the studio every other day....till like 5am in the morning....ok lar 4 something..by the time i hit the sack.. the solat( aaahhhumwam pum ) is on.....
and yes i don't know what is in store for me in oct.nov and dec....

it's 8am in the morning and im going to krabi for a wedding...am singing for the wedding and i'm looking forward to this break in a long time...my first holiday for this year.....

oh well i think sometimes we put in 110% but we believe that we only get what 40% of what we've put in... but this is life.,..

it comes to a point sometimes i tell myself i'm sick and tired of teaching,....im sick
of this and sick of that...but when we think and realise what we can contribute...maybe we would feel a little better.....like the other day...my student came and told me teacher i want to be a music teacher can ar? well it's stuff like that that keeps you going....so always try and look for the silver lining at every dark cloud....

i miss you all very much and i hope that we can catch up soon!! chris promise after krabi i'll be seeing you!!!!


love you guys
yin

bean sprouts..

Bean oh bean..

we ve been playing "Farmville" on facebook and i guess those money that we earned there will never ever be in our purse to be splurged when we walk around shopping malls.

well, i guess it s true, like sin lee says..there are times when we are just so down and when we reflect back..we are thinking of all the "WHAT IF's?" but, bean...we ve gone through a long journey to get to where we are today.

let me tell u something, i know someone who used to be able to afford to drive a skyline..but now drives a kancil. if it was me, i would have die-ed (i know..i know..dead) asking me to have a leap in my economical status. 

who s not in debt..wana check out my credit card bill? Gary s kept my credit cards...muahaha..and with all these debt..hmm..u would cry if u were me. and bean, u r very successful compared to some of us. u ve got a home to go home too..mum cooks u dinner..eh..my mum s thousands of miles away k? i ve got ajinomoto in my almost every meal..i think my chances of being lydia sum is way much higher than urs...u at least hit 4 mins in the gym..mine...barely 4 secs..

just do ur best...if u ve done ur best, done compare urself with others. u r in ur own league.

well well, arent u glad u have chicas like us? well, i know...at times, i do post up things similar to this and then i ll have u guys telling me that things would be fine..so here we are bean, seriously, starbucks on sin lee..sin lee is so ever-beautiful...smart..funny (trying my luck on gettting my cuppa coffee too..eh..but sin lee..pls dont have that pregnancy attitude of having difficulty on choosing between iced or ice blended k? ) ahahahahha!

ANYWAYS,  i m looking forward to the year-end as i would be terrribly busy. am packed for my marketing schedule in Oct..and in Nov, i m making a trip back to Kuching to meet up with Gary's family. and then in Dec, i ve got my SuperCamp and then right after, i m leaving for Guangzhou for my hols and Gary s coming over to visit my parents. so yeah..and guess what bean, i havent seen chin su yin for years..i dunno how she looks like anymore! hmm....

okies..am at work..not FARMVILLING..but am working..sigh..and they havent sacked me yet...damn... and my pay, bean...if u ever have a peep at my payslip...u d rather be a prostitute...i m serious...

heheheh! much love to all of u...who s coming back? when?when? 

starbucks

sinlee i want starbucks please thank you.

bin ah bin everyone who has a car has it on loan and everyone who has a home is in debt. ask my sister :)

you have super dead sexy friends, thats all you'll ever need LAH OKAY?

October....

Ah bean..is October coming and don't be so negative!

" Count the garden by the flowers, never by the leaves that fall.
Count your life with smiles and not the tears that roll"

i believe everyone of us has the obstacles, nonsense that everyone has such a perfect life...melo is waking up midnight answering calls, ping is working til dunno hell wat time, su yin is like running around recording, chris deserve better $$$ while cleaning the shit work, angie chong in US missing us, msia food, haha the list can go on...and im challenging a new role...............

Cheer up! Starbucks on me ok..;)

this is a very sad post...

guess everybody must be really busy with their work and personal life now.. everybody must be now pursuing after their dreams and chasing after their goals before reaching 30, regardless its about getting a good man, getting married, having kids, getting a well paid job, buying a house, completing masters, completing collections of bags.. etc ..etc ...we are all very busy challenging ourselves everyday.

however busy we are, never forget to take really good care of ourselves as we can no longer deny that we are all 25 heading 30. will start noticing that we are aging faster, metabolism starts slowing down, getting tired easily, start noticing fine lines by the eye, below the eye... etc.. etc .. etc..

what draws me to writing this is because my very caring bf has very consistently reminded me out of good will that if i dont take good care of my face and body now, i'll start looking like 'sum tin har' - 'lydia sum'. and nope, i dont want to end up being fat and not so attractive when i've never even been attractive before. cant imagine being ugly all my life. what a loser, no achievement at all! no prime time before.

lately i am abit stressed up at work. it's the last quarter to close deals, meeting targets, and achieving quotas.. and being a sales support, the pressure and stress from the sales managers are mounting up on me. favoritism is showing, and cooping with work has been really tough. signs are showing that i m not performing well and my job's at stake. if someone has to go, i'll be the 1st to be gotten rid off.

yesterday was a very sad day for me. i came home, dad told me it's time to sell my car. things are falling apart and fixing it would cost me more than a new car. before i even get to understand what each button does, i have to say g'bye to my car. buying a new car? i really doubt i can afford another car. it was my pride, now it's going away. i bought it to prove to myself that i could be independent, and i could drive like everybody else. but now .. i m back to square 1. still as useless as before.

i dont know where am i heading to. feeling so lost at the moment. just when i thought i had it all, a career, a reliable and caring but not so romantic man, my very 1st asset-my car... it's all starting to look distance again. so much uncertainty.

i cant recall what used to be my dreams and goals, and what i used to work for. everything feels so meaningless tonight.

Happy Burstday DR YAP ah Lye!

Hey Hsiu Lye! Happy Birthday! Many happy returns of the day! COME HOME SOON! and we ll celebrate at the mamak stall..and try on some cool new eye-lashes! hahaha! and not forgetting, welcome to the 2.5 club! gosh...5 more years before we hit 30 yo! hahaha!
lotsa hugs from all of us back here in PeeJay..where all the great food are :) hehe! hugsss!

HaPPppY BirTThhDayYY Pingg!!!

happy birthdayy ping! welcome to the world of '25'!!
lol! lets age with style together! WooHooooo~!
have a greattt bday ping! lets meet up this weekend!! hahah...imagine in the next few years sinlee or chris bring their kids along to celebrate your bday..lol!!

bin's posting..

Yes boss.. yes sinlee.. I m blogging .. I m blogging… don’t angry… don’t marah… :D

my life’s a real bore, I cant think of anything to blog about...

I took a Quart of baskin robbins ice cream on the 31^st Aug celebrating independent’s day and I thought I would get ice cream poisoned from overdosed of ice cream. but i survived, punished by a few newly added kgs and a heavier flabby arm accompanied by a higher density of fats on my 3 layer stomach.

And I think I m falling sick… my entire body’s aching.. having a headache.. and water’s dripping from my nose. I can feel that uncle flu's coming to visit. and my aunt P is here for her monthly visit therefore all these are adding to my irritation and frustration.

i cant wait till raya hols... then i can sleep and hibernate like sinlee :D

Holiday? I want holiday in cambodia! Anyone up for Cambodia? Mystical - historical - antique - OooO - Cambodia….

so who's up for holiday end of the year?

WOH LA WOHHH

helo

i have no pictures to post up about my hot and sexy life. but you must believe that i have a hot and sexy life anyway, ok?

it's very hot now in LA and i have my period. i don't like it at all because it makes me very uncomfortable. the hotness, not the period. well the period maybe a bit also

i have two chapters to read for class tomorrow then i have to review one chapter for thursday's class. that about sums up a students life.

OH woh la i'm going for a football game this saturday. i hope that time my period finish already. sigh this is like the period post.

malunya...

please. like gangster right? i was RIDING the teacups ok! (disneyland)

aloha

Hello girls and girls!


Hows every BADDDYYY????


first of all since miss sin lee has mentioned leave and you guys DID NOT COME TO BRISBANE, just wondering when is everyone going to be on leave at the end of the year, and where is everyone going etc... and whether ANYONE IS UP FOR HOLIDAYS SOMEWHERE WHERE we can exploit cheap air asia tickets overseas??? we can do a minitrip and it will be
fun fun F.U.N!!!!

phillipines, laos, cambodia, india, indonesia, myanmar, taiwan,




thailand



china

vietnam