i m on mc todayy!! wooHoo, 4days off in a row!

so happy i m on mc today... woke up with a headache and a heavy bleeding nose (dripping blood from nostril. The pharmacies and doctors chicas, any idea why?)... anyway i am feeling better now... i m on mcccc :D !!! although i m on mc, it still feels so nice to be off since fri, sat, sun, and now extended mon.... if only i can have a gooood loonnng breakkk.... am in need of a holiday.... year end get away... is anyone going anywhere for hols this month? life is short, live it up!!! :D

to my bestest friends :)

i miss my 'bestest' friends, all the very cool chicas(s) of 2001.. and i want to wish each of you a
very very very early
"MeRRy ChRistMas!!"
enjoy the season and the best of remaining 2009!
love ya girls loads!

-bin-

de-stress therapy anyone?

my most beautiful chicas... free on friday morning for some de-stress activities?? :D

here's my agenda for tomorrow morninggg !!

9.00 am - 11.o0 am : Damansara Jaya for Dim Sum

11.00 am - 1.30 pm : Zara, Massimo Dutti, Pull and Bear and Ted Baker WaREHouSE SaLess SHOPPIING SPREEEEEEEEE!!!

Date : 26 - 29 November 2009

Time: 11am – 8pm

Venue : The Atria Shopping Centre Jalan 22/23, Damansara Jaya, 47400 Petaling Jaya

...another sleepless night....

...i dont know how long have i been tossing in bed again. lots of thoughts and worries are flooding my brain. am feeling so pressured and disturbed. My performance review is in Dec. if i were to leave my department, i have to decide by this week. if i were to leave, my performance review with my current manager will be so awkward. and he jst told me today that i did well this year. this must be one of the most painful decision i have to make this year. if my work sucks, or if my manager's an *******, then this would be so much easier for me. can someone please guide me.

*sigh*

at a cross road..

sigh.. i cant sleep.. been tossing around in bed for an hour... although i am dead tired. it's monday night... the most tiring day of the week.

Anyway, i m undecided. I have been given a choice to 1) stay in my current department 2) transfer over to another department.

Option 1 : What is keeping me here... or shooing me away

1) during my job interview, nobody including the MD believes in me, nobody believes that this young and inexperience girl can do well in a customer (c-level) facing job... but yet my current manager fought to bring me into the team.

2) unfortunately my manager is an extremely technical guy who is pretty bad in managing people. he does not provide guidance, or coaching. he believes in throwing me out at the sea, bringing me back when i am seen drowning. yet, when i drown he doesnt tell me why i drown.

3) my manager speaks very well of me to others, resulting in me being awarded as appreciated staff, and been identified as key talent in the company. yet i m empty inside. and ppl do talk behind me...

4) i am dealing with many nasty sales ppl who are cunning, scary, impatient, hypocrite... all the bad stuff... and my manager is not able to protect me from them.

5) i m currently software products/tools specific, meaning i m the hammer and nail without given any instructions or menu. practically, i can built anything (houses, furniture, toys, buildings, playgrounds etc) but just not given any instructions...meaning you're stuck with tools, without menu/instructions. in short, you can do alot with me, but when u want me to build a house, i m useless, unless u have the brains and know how to use me.

6) i have pretty good work life balance, leaving office at 5.30-6pm everyday.

7) i m not optimizing my learning experience and opportunity here, i just try things out through the trial and error way...trying my luck day by day without any specific directions.


Option 2 : Get out of here, challenge myself another step further

1) thanks to my manager's good words of me, another department has approached me and has offered me to join their team

2) this department specializes in a specific solution, meaning the nail and hammer comes together with instructions and menu. but this menu only builds houses... all kinds of houses including semi-d, bangalow, low cost flats, apartments, condos etc...In short, it specializes in Financial Solution like BaselII, Risk Management...(ping would understand these terms)

3) this department's manager is way more capable and is very willing to coach me.

4) financial industry is always the more secure sector, with better pay and career path. better opportunity for next role. but i dont quite like numbers.

5) if i join this department, it means... challenging myself all over again... gone are those flexible lazy days.

6) this department could coach me to do things the right way instead of banging my head around, and i drown less.

7) joining this team also means working hard. not so easy life.

Salary and remuneration? will be the same. but option 2 may pay better when i leave the company.

sigh...i hope you girls understand my dilemma.... i need to give an answer by this week. i really dont know which is better for me, or what i want for myself. sigh.. i cant sleep. i dont want to regret over the decision i make. i cant decide.. feeling so lostt... help!

so quiet around here!

hey girls! why has it been so quiet arnd here? i saw from fb yesterday that chin ye's married! :) lol... who's next? ironic that time's passing by so quickly.. almost another yr will be gone and OMG.. we'll be 26!!!!! jst OMG. i DONT BELIEVE IT! and i m nottt happpy to be there at 26!! :S

anyway girls... what happened to our breakfast sessions? each time we plan for something it's always only me and chris who turned up. the rest... mia. what happened laa? eh, one of these days we should have another girl's night out... go listen to jazzy music, sip fruit juice (can be something else for the rest of you), cuci mata abit..etc... *before we celebrate our 30's.. (OMG!! Thirties!)

gonna be friday again girls... but i m not at all excited abt it. i wonder why.
anyone's free to go shopping with me on sat?? i need a shopping + food therapy for de-stress...

Just for the Chicas

As usual came to work, feel bored and looking for some motivation and i found this & should remind myself every morning lol...

"Work spares us from three evils: boredom, vice, and need."

-Voltaire

Well my work so far has been boring cuz i dont have much to do yet, is my 3rd week already.....lets c when the bomb is coming...another quote i hope it works...

"Decide what you want. Believe you can have it. Believe you deserve it and believe it's possible for you. And then close your eyes every day for several minutes, and visualize having what you already want, feeling the feelings of already having it. Come out of that and focus on what you're grateful for already, and really enjoy it. Then go into your day and release it to the Universe and trust that the Universe will figure out how to manifest it."


-Jack Canfield. Jack is the creator of Chicken Soup for the Soul. I love this quote because it outlines a specific process that you can go through to attract more of what you want into your life: believe, visualize, and express gratitude. This is what I'm doing everyday for each of my goals. Now, some people might say "that sounds like some mystical mumbo-jumbo". Maybe. Jack Canfield does it and he's a multi-millionaire. You can put it this way, it's another tool in your arsenal. The people who are doing this process everyday are going to have this over you (if you don't do this). I think this is an excellent process and I encourage everyone to: believe, visualize, and express gratitude every single day. You will be shocked by the results.

..............*** my lottery is coming *** hahah