i cant be more glad to bump into suyin and to hugged her this evening and best surprise of the day? i received a call from Ah Lye! oh YeS, our YaP Ah LyE! she's home!! back in M'sia for holidaayy and she'll be arnd for 2 weeks! how lovely isnt it?
now. a lil story abt me.
khoo bin wei being khoo bin wei had always took things for granted. she thought she was a strong lady, and everyday she felt that she missed being single and free. and occasionally she cries for freedom and yell nasty things at her boyfriend telling him she'll do better without him, she aughts to be treated better, and she hasnt seen enough of the world yet to be tied down this way. So she yelled and she pleaded that she needed time apart to reconsider about what she needs, what is meant for her and what is not. however, although how much she cries and screams, her boyfriend told her to hang on there, she'll definitely get the chance to think about what she needs with a job like his. (job scope says required to work on projects abroad for months)
So finally, this morning he has left for work for a month. and yeah, a month seems to be pretty short. but gosh. i cant explain the feeling of emptiness inside me. every hour seems to be so draggy and blue. feels so different knowing that i cant just pick up the phone to scold or to talk to someone. u know i've been seeing the same guy every single day over the past 7 yrs. the longest time we were apart? 1 week and never more! and in any 1 week, we talked on the phone at least 5 times a day. so i guess without realizing it, i was feeling so attached to him, so glued and so used to it without realizing he has became part of my life, my routine.
Today, for the 1st time in 7 yrs, i feel this way. i cant explain. i jst feel so empty. so sien. like dont know whether to sit or stand.
btw r u girls bored reading this? sigh. maybe i dont know what i am typing anymore. anyway, cant wait to see you girls soon. though i was going slightly mad.
k lar. signing off.
See you girls soon. hugs!
2 comments:
hun..*hugs* hang in there!yeah!!!we take things for granted when it's infront of us and when its gone,thats the only time we realise what we have been taking for granted!
ur so lucky to be able to meet up with yap hsiu lyee!!!!!i want too!!!!cherish it! :)
melo! how are things going for you? thought the last time when we met up u looked pretty tired and stressed. hope everything is fine now. i m getting used to his absence already,hahah pretty fast isnt it? but su yin says it's always up and down, and u wont knw when that sad wave is coming. so lets see la. i've been keeping myself really bz. i met up with the rest of the girls tonight, great to see everyone doing so well! i jst cant wait to hv you back, feels so wonderful to have everyone bck together again..
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